(Untitled) - Loneliness

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“Distance” | Raven Smith | 2022-2024

I’m tired of thinking
I’m tired of thinking I could stop

when thinking comes he just follows
He lurks in the cracks of all the homes on the south side
heard He be out west too sometimes
you just know when He on the way
makes sure He’s strong in letting you know when He bout to pull up
it’s weird cause it’s like you can almost taste Him
taste just like doubt
sti
nd bitter
Iike an oldhead stuck in their ways
like being angry with yourself for months because you couldn’t gure out why you were becoming so detached
He just knows when it’s the worst time to come around
i think He feeds o of it
probably why He seems so joyous
He’s always so loud
loud In smell
nd in sight
nd in sound
in comparison vacant lots out south sound like a symphony at night
i know they’re lonely too
at night they sing about the homes nd corner stores they once loved
He somehow still makes a place feel alone

nd yet somehow He still makes an emptiness feel so full almost feels like your intestines start turning to dust like your stomach just dehydrates
nd all you feel is stuck

nd all you feel is thin
it almost makes your body forget the basics
He always arrives in my lungs rst
sucks on the moisture
feels like a sharp wind is being pushed into your chest nd it begins to inate your lungs
nd all you feel is a new slimy breathe
feels like you're not the one who’s breathing
It’s almost like you’re not